Family

This week I had to send my last grand parent off to her eternity.. It sucked but I am so lucky to have had 4 grandparents for at least 19 years and to have not lost my last until 26. I still have a great aunty too! And boy isn't she great.. I'm sure she is going to stick around for a while, she promised...  

So my family like most is pretty messed up! I've always been super close to my grand parents an uncle and parents but one uncle was lost years ago and there are many other family members that we dont have as much contact with. This situation was more messed up than most.. Death truly brings out the worst in people. Let's be real there is no manual on 'etiquette for a funeral' but I think with the pain of the loss and the thought of trying to make your self feel the apology and loss you truly lose the ability to see things in a true frame.  This week was nothing less than that. Myself personally I went through a period of 15 minutes where I truly lost my shit and didn't care who was in my way. I also snapped back to not feeling human emotions as my true autistic self and went back to organizing everyone else.  Family is a weird thing isn't it.. I'm lucky I have a mum and dad who are together a sister and now a brother in law, a partner with a lovely family to call my own and an uncle who is much like a brother who can get me out of trouble. But how can family really be defined. We all have it so different and we all have such amazing connections truly a magical thing.  I would also like to say the true circle of life is happening at the moment as we lost our Nan my sister is growing a little alien in her belly to grow our family.. How lucky are we right?  To be honest I don't really have a point today these are truly just words. I have now lost part of my up bringing and I feel a significant piece of me has been lost with each grand parent and I want to hear you're stories and hear your love!