Go out there and make yourself proud

So its been a while, I planned to write while I was away but clearly that didn't work. I got so carried away with my holiday it was amazing. From seeing family for the first time in 4 years to seeing my partner after two months and adventuring over the different countries I truly lost myself at times it was amazing!

Coming home is quite surreal, my life was chaotic the weeks before my holiday, from my last post you may have seen we lost a part of our family. Being swept up with that, drama, spending as much time with my family and taking off on holiday I don't quite recall everything happening. Now its time to pick up the pieces.

One of the many thinks I saw and heard on my holiday was the quote from the underground speaker was 'Go out there today and make yourself proud'. For some reason it resonated that day, even though I was on my way shopping so obvi I was making myself proud haha!

Coming back to the surreality of life I feel like I, and most others, can use it daily. I think we go through the days in the motions and I wonder if in 5 years that will be regretted? I work full time and have a very busy life yes, but am I going to be happy with the robotic way I live day to day, probs not. Don't get me wrong I'm not going to quit work and search for purpose I am going to just get more out of my life, well do more with it.

There are so many hours in the day used so poorly. Waiting for amazingness to come yet not making the amazingness happen! I thought when I was younger that I had the ability to change the world, I forgot that I do have the ability if I get off my ass and do it. Make people smile for no reason, wear the bright outfit even though I may look funny. But most of all help make this world a better place.

I hope I am not alone, I really hope others join me. I think writing it down or discussing these things makes us a little more accountable. If no one knows than do we really have to achieve it? All dreams are too big if you don't commit to doing them!