Stuck in a rut with a nut.

Ok so maybe there isn’t a nut... just me, I am a bit nutty. I am 27 years old and I’m getting closer (not too close) to 30. Crazy that I used to think 30 was old and I sometimes walk out of my office with 2 different shoes on. That’s not a lie I (stupidly) keep spare shoes under my desk. 

10 years ago in my yr 12 yearbook, to the question ‘where will you be in 10 years time’ I answered something like married with children bla bla bla... 17 year old me would be so disappointed that I am not married, no ring yet either *hint*, and definitely no children. Refer back to the unable to wear shoes correctly fact. I mean how pissed would she be to find out I spent the last 10 years working hard, creating an amazing career, traveling, buying property, growing an amazing wardrobe, cementing my place in an amazing community and annoying the crap out of my family, boyf and fur baby. 

Back to my rut. I have been feeling lately that I’m stuck in the same routine, I mean getting older I’m not as ‘cool’ as I used to be. I went looking for ‘boyfriend’ jeans the other day to find out I’m too late and I don’t think they are even in anymore. 

I am looking at life wondering what happened? But really what I am actually thinking is comparing today me to 2, 5 maybe 7 year ago me. And obviously I’m not going to be the same I have grown and achieved so much that I can’t be the same it’s impossible. It’s time to make a decision to keep looking into the past with ‘despair’ or look into the future. 

Photo by pexel 

I chose now. I chose to look at the things I do have instead of the things that I don’t. Taking the opportunities in front of me rather than those I left behind, clearly for a reason. 

Look forward. Not back.